Tomorrow will be exactly three months since mom passed away - it doesn't seem that long at times, and other times, it feels like years!!!! How I wish I could really sit with her at my kitchen table and she'd drink her cup of coffee with me - no sugar, but enough creamer to make it the right color:) At McDonald's it was a "senior coffee with three creamers", but at my house we usually had to scrape the jar of dry creamer as I didn't use it much, or just some skim milk:)!! The last time mom came to my home Litney brought Helen from Cheney - now each time I have coffee with mom, Helen will be here too - at least through my window.
Funny how our minds can work, huh? I mean I definitely know there's no way that either one of them are here, but at moments, I "feel" like it's possible? Sometimes when I'm asleep I have a quick dream about mom and wake up only to realize she's gone - all in my memory for now. Still so difficult to go through some days! As I was talking with Jenice the other day we commented on how mom would still shed a tear when she talked about Grandma - I so understand! I remember not wanting to mention Grandma as I knew it would make mom cry - but now that I'm in that position, I want to remember mom! And yes, I'll cry - but don't you think those tears are good? Oh - I miss talking with her!!!!
One more cup this morning - I LOVE my new window!!! Blessings to both Helen and mom!!! Blessings to all!
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